gee folks I don’t know where to begin. I have started writing this post maybe 10 times since I went missing late last year. It’s been one hell of an emotional ride. I decided to take a chance, let down my guard and risk it all. For awhile it was great, I was on top of the world. The sun shone on me night and day. I walked on clouds and wore an insufferable, permanent smile. I could barely believe life could be so grand. So so wonderful.
Of course anything that seems too good to be true isn’t. On a cool Tuesday morning when I suppose all of the rest of you were a work, reality snuck up and boxed me down. I was stunned but not altogether surprised. What did shock me was the series of unfortunate events that followed. They say bad things happen in threes… hmmm… I think I more than filled my quota for 2008. I must have broken a mirror and i forgot :S
Anyway, what can I say now? I am not doing well. There I said it. I been waking up every morning, putting on a happy face a sloughing thru the days as cheerful as possible but I am so unhappy. I make a conscious effort to give thanks for all my blessings and mercies but lately it’s been most unpretty on the career, family, romance and general well being scale. Nothing is as it was. I am starting over and its hard. Very hard. Some days are good and others are torture. Some days I think I won’t make it, I can’t make it but I continue to believe that the sun will come out tomorrow…
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And it will, Sweetie. This too shall pass. I am so sorry you are in this place and you are in my thoughts. Be well, Spice.
They say depression brings on wrinkles. Run as far away as possible. Dont dwell on the past, look to the future.
sistren you sound quite sad. very sorry that things aint going well at the moment. all you can do is remember the happy days and know that they will come again and try and get through these painful moments. take care of yourself
{{{{Island S.}}}}}}
Sorry about what happened, but I could sympathize more if I knew exactly what happened.
leon tryna get all up in ya bidniss…
read some of my blog entries of my own troubles, maybe it’ll be therapeutic
hushies
thanks guys. I been in Tobago for a bit, went for jazz and stayed to just unwind. feeling much more positive now!
give thanks for all your blessings and don’t keep stuff bottled up, it will only weigh you down
We go through it. We either sink or swim. Summin tells me you’re a swimmer. *hugs*
Happy Birthday Spicey!!!
Spicey Lady, chin up. The sun will definitely come out tomorrow. When everything else fails, turn to God. He’s always there for you and always has the answer. Take care honey.